Xavi, Xavi, why have you forsaken me?

Why is there such a thing as that?
Have I considered it? Certainly. Who hasn't?
It's hard to live life without considering the alternative.
But to do it? To make a plan and carry it out,
How could you? I miss you.
It's triggered by anything from
Chinese food to TV shows
I knew you loved, and I loved too,
Loved you, in that way brothers do
And brothers we could have been,
Were, in a way. There was closeness,
But not enough. Not enough for me
To know what tortured you,
Which in turn now tortures me.
How could you?
The cursor blinks at me,
Waiting, waiting, waiting...
Are you waiting?
We needed you here.
Still do. Always will.
The world is heavier without your spirit.

Have you ever been the only sane man in the asylum
on the wrong side of the bars.
That's what it's like living in this world.
I wanna see a child kill a grown man, see 'im grow up
To a lone man. Put on a slow jam and slow dance
To the romance of boy meets world
Like boy, he's whirled
Around the globe enough times to know that nobody tries
And everybody lies when they sayin' they be prayin' for ya.
Maybe once but twice is too much effort's what I'm sayin'
No bluff. Go to the trouble if you wanna know what's up,
Or it'll find you first and leave you dying of thirst
from no love.
God is there no God, no God is there hope of
Is there hope of
hope of
hope of
There is no
What?
There is no hope of
Everything that you've ever been promised
The world welcomes no one to its gate
And that's honest.
Kill the old to make room for the new
The new who?
The new you, and please kill me, too
Better dead than indebted to tradition
Incessant counter-intuition
Counter to the founders, numbers,
They're just bouncers keeping us in malnutrition
In the streets livin' like men speak,
From one breath to the next, one birth to the death
One hearse to the next, bleak minutes missin'
Kissin' vultures on the beak, beggin' for a little nibble
Snackin' till there's only bones left
Only bones left.
Gotta eat and pay the rent and all the rest
And only bones left.
Only bones left.
Don't you know they own your time and all the rest?
And only bones left.