Xavi, Xavi, why have you forsaken me?

Why is there such a thing as that?
Have I considered it? Certainly. Who hasn't?
It's hard to live life without considering the alternative.
But to do it? To make a plan and carry it out,
How could you? I miss you.
It's triggered by anything from
Chinese food to TV shows
I knew you loved, and I loved too,
Loved you, in that way brothers do
And brothers we could have been,
Were, in a way. There was closeness,
But not enough. Not enough for me
To know what tortured you,
Which in turn now tortures me.
How could you?
The cursor blinks at me,
Waiting, waiting, waiting...
Are you waiting?
We needed you here.
Still do. Always will.
The world is heavier without your spirit.